I have tried so many times to keep a journal but I always give up after a few days. Today I was cleaning out the backpack I brought home from Haiti & I found a little notebook with only 1 page written in… my latest failed attempt at a journal! I read the lonely 3 entries and immediately came to the computer. I clearly remember why I started this journal… I was feeling discouraged about being in Haiti as it felt like I was not having an impact. Here are the 3 entries…

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May 26, 2008:

What have I done in Haiti?

Rebecca, it’s not about you. It’s not about how people see you. It’s not about making people like you. It’s about what I am doing. You are only an instrument – I am the musician. Just be willing… Just be willing…
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June 7, 2008

“In decision making always begin with “Yes Lord.” Do not proceed to seek God’s direction if you cannot honestly say, ‘Whatever you want from me, Lord, I will do it.'”

(this was a direct quote from a book I was reading but I can’t remember what book!?!)
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June 13, 2008:

Read 2 Cor. 5:1-10 (read it!!!). Lord, may the reality that I am living a temporary life on earth sink in. May this reality change the way I live. May I not be a hypocrite in the way I live.
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To be honest, I’m not sure why I’m sharing this with you. Maybe I needed a reminder of the way God has spoken to me in my times of discouragement. Maybe someone out there needs to realize that God is talking to them right now…